Kristen Stewart: Robert Pattinson Split Was Still ‘Incredibly Painful’ 2 Years Later

“Twilight” franchise co-stars Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson split in 2012, after the actress’ cheating scandal, but the breakup stung for months.

The actress stars in the upcoming love story “Equals” alongside Nicholas Hoult. The film began filming in August 2014, immediately after Nicholas’ high-profile breakup from Jennifer Lawrence.

Kristen said both she and Nicholas used their personal breakup experiences to fuel their performance.

“It was incredibly painful,” the actress told the Daily Beast. “Ugh, f**king kill me.”

Kristen was grateful to be acting alongside someone who had also experienced a trying public split.

“It was a really good time for both of us to make this movie,” she said. “Not all of my friends have been through what I’ve been through, or what some people have tasted at a relatively-speaking young age, and we were not expected to do anything. Everything that we did was explorative, and a meditation on what we already knew.”

Adding, “We all felt akin by how much we’ve been through, and to utilize that is so scary. And to acknowledge it, reassess, and jump back into it? Usually you want to move on. But at least we could use some of that for some good.”

The film, directed by Drake Doremus, centers on two people (Kristen and Nicholas’ characters Nia and Silas) who fall in love in a futuristic society where emotions have been erased. The couple is forced to try to escape or face execution.

“This movie was a meditation on firsts, and a meditation on maintaining, and a meditation on the ebbs and flows of what it’s like to love someone—your feelings versus your ideals, the bursting of bubbles, the shattering of dreams you thought were possible, and what you have to contend with as things get more realistic,” she explained of the film, which debuted at the Venice Film Festival. “Relationships — you just never f**king know.”

The 25-year-old also opened up about her “horrible” real life first kiss.

“It was horrible! It was so bad. It was f**king repulsive,” she said. “I was 14 and it was gross. It was not good.”

— Erin O’Sullivan