Johnny Knoxville has opened up about the recent loss of his dear friend and “Jackass” co-star, Ryan Dunn, who died earlier this week after a fatal car crash, which authorities have said involved alcohol.
In a blog post titled, “From Knoxville with Love,” the 40-year-old actor/daredevil expressed what he “wished” he would have told mourners at Dunn’s memorial on Wednesday, but couldn’t get out because he was trying his best “not to cry.”
“I felt 34 percent funnier when I was with Ryan, but I guess everyone did,” Knoxville wrote in the blog posted on Saturday.
“He had such a hair trigger laugh reflex. He lived his life wanting to laugh and wanting you to laugh with him. He would cackle really.. loud, too, and it wasn’t uncommon that he would fall over from it. Sometimes I would fall with him because his spirit was very contagious.”
Despite Dunn’s love of humor, Knoxville said his friend was a “great listener” and not “incapable of seriousness.”
“He was always there if you were sad about something,” Knoxville wrote. “That’s why all this is even harder because right now I really need to talk to him but I can’t.”
The heartbroken father of two — with a third baby on the way — said having to wake up his 15–year-old daughter, Madison, to deliver the tragic news was incredibly painful.
“She loved you so much and I know you loved her, so why, buddy?” Knoxville asked. “[My son] will never get to know you like she did, nor will my daughter that is coming in October. I cry a lot about that.”
Finally, Knoxville said that although he knows his friend’s spirit lives on through the lives of those he touched, it’s “pretty tough to see right now through the tears.”
“You’ll have to excuse me, I’m just very sad because I lost my brother and my world got about 134-percent less funny,” he concluded. “I don’t know what else to say right now, so I will close with I love you, Ryan. I have a lot of emotions swirling, but I want you to know I love you so very much.”
As previously reported on AccessHollywood.com, Dunn, 34, and his passenger, Zachary Hartwell, 30, died early Monday in a fiery car crash after they left a bar in West Chester, Penn.
According to the Associated Press, police said Dunn’s Porsche may have been traveling as fast as 140 mph in a 55 mph zone when it jumped a guardrail, flew into a wooded ravine, struck a tree and burst into flames.
Dunn’s blood-alcohol level was 0.196 – more than twice the legal limit — at the time of the crash, according to the toxicology report released Wednesday by West Goshen Township Police, the AP reported.
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