Lindsay: I Looked Up To The ‘Britneys’ Of Hollywood
First Published: August 31, 2010 11:51 AM EDT Credit: Vanity Fair
-- Lindsay Lohan says she’s learned from her past mishaps and wants to get her career back on track.
“I don’t care what anyone says. I know that I’m a damn good actress,” the 24-year-old told Vanity Fair in its October issue during a July interview conducted before she served 14 days in jail and 23 days of inpatient rehab.
“And I know that in my past I was young and irresponsible – but that’s what growing up is. You learn from your mistakes,” she continued.
Lohan denies reports that she’s alcoholic.
“If I were the alcoholic everyone says I am, then putting a [SCRAM] bracelet on would have ended me up in detox, in the emergency room, because I would have had to come down from all the things that people say I’m taking and my father says I’m taking — so that says something, because I was fine,” she continued. “I think my biggest focus for myself is learning how to continue to get through the trauma that my father has caused in my life.”
The actress said the presence of her family during her recent court appearances was painful – telling the mag that seeing her younger sister, Ali, cry was “heartbreaking.”
“The worst part of it is you turn around and you see your dad crying and normally you’d be, like, happy that your father’s there. But then he has to go and do an interview right after,” she said of her day in court.
Lohan also shot down reports of her alleged drug addictions.
“I’ve never abused prescription drugs. I never have – never in my life. I have no desire to. That’s not who I am,” she told the mag. “I’ve admitted to the things that I’ve done – to, you know, dabbling in certain things and trying things ‘cause I was young and curious and thought it was like, OK, ‘cause other people were doing it and other people put it in front of me. And I see what happened in my life because of it.”
The actress said that running with the wrong crowd and looking up to her fellow starlets took her down the wrong path.
“So many people around me would say they cared for the wrong reasons. A lot of people were pulling from me, taking from me and not giving. I had a lot of people that were there for me for, you know, the party,” she continued. “It was very go-go-go and I had a lot of responsibility; and I think just the second I didn’t have [structure] anymore – I was 18, 19—with a ton of money and no one really here to tell me that I couldn’t do certain things … And I see where that’s gotten me now, and I don’t like it.”
According to Lindsay, she used to only read tabloids to get her news, saying, “[It was] really scary and sad… I would look up to those girls… the Britneys and whatever. And I would be like, I want to be like that.”