Miley Cyrus Feeling 'Helplessly Hopeless' Over Dog Floyd's Death

Miley Cyrus & Floyd, December 2013 Miley Cyrus & Floyd, December 2013

Miley Cyrus continues to mourn the loss of her dog Floyd.

In a rambling letter posted as a photo on Twitter on Saturday, the singer expressed her ongoing sadness over the death of the Alaskan Klee Kai, who passed away in early April.

“Sad pupils are beautiful too…humans. We Looooove to feel sorry for ourselves don’t we… I’ve read we are one of the only species (among dolphins, pigs, some primates) that have sex for pleasure, but I would bet we are the ONLY creatures that put ourselves thru pain for pleasuree,” she wrote. “How many times have you laid in bed and cried when the sun is out shining. Your loved ones are out laughing, and there are thousands of brilliant books to be read… but CHOOSE to lay in a bed and indulge yourself in sadness. Today I am choosing to be that selfish human. There’s nothing I want more than to lay and drown this pillow in my tears & think about all my shoulda, coulda, wouldas.

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“I keep asking why would the world take my sweet boy from me? I’m just a baby myself…I depend on my mother still,” the letter continued. “She is the one at the end of the day I want to hold me when I’m sad, scared, lonely. Her one job in this world is to keep me out of harms way. Even though moms can’t always control it, a mother’s greatest responsibility is to keep their baby from anyone hurting them physically or emotionally. I was Floyd’s mommy. I don’t know when the regret and the guilt will fade. I don’t know if it ever will.”

Miley, 21, who confirmed Floyd’s death via Twitter on April 1 and broke down in tears on stage while performing the following night, said she feels like she’s to blame for the dog’s passing.

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“I feel like I let my boy down. My job was to protect him and I’m not a person that takes failure lightly. Death lightly. Love lightly…,” she continued via Twitter. “Today is one of those days where I can’t open the curtains to see the sun…open the windows to hear the world going on around me because to be honest I hate the fact that the world’s still spinning. I want it to stop…I want everyone’s heart to break the way my heart is breaking.”

She concluded, “No matter how much I cry or beg of ‘god’ to wake me up from this nightmare, it is what it is (at least that’s what everyone keeps reminding me). There’s no waking up from reality so today I am being a helplessly hopeless human & I’m ok with that.”

The singer also posted a close-up photo of her teary eye on Instagram with the caption, “#sadpupilsarebeautifultoo.”

-- Erin O’Sullivan

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